You show up. You stay. You pay attention. You risk something.

It’s not a huge risk. But it’s still scary. It is for me.

We’re at T-Rav’s in Jackson, a local spot Alissa and I like, at a four-top right in the middle of the restaurant. Judah is with us. The kind of table where everyone can see you, and you can see everyone. Our server comes over, takes a drink order, and disappears. Three ice waters. It takes her fifteen minutes to bring them, and the ice is almost completely melted when she does.

Before she comes back, what should I have done? Flag her down? Ask for the manager? Wait for the owner to come around and ask how everything is tonight? Or berate everyone in earshot because my needs weren’t met the second I sat down?

Your server is a human being. You don’t know what kind of night she’s had. You don’t know if her kid is sick, or if the cook just walked out, or if the last table stiffed her. And it isn’t her fault the kitchen cooked your steak too long.

Here’s the thing about that middle table. Everyone sees you. Which means the second you raise a hand, the second your voice carries, you’re the story in the room. The risk isn’t that you’ll embarrass the server. The risk is that you’ll look like the bad guy for calling her out at all. That’s the part nobody talks about. Sometimes showing up for someone costs you the benefit of the doubt in a room full of strangers.

Alissa and I look at each other across the table. Judah is patient. Sort of. He’s playing with the salt and pepper shakers, tipping one, then the other, nearly spilling both all over the table. Now that would be embarrassing. We decide, without saying it, that we’re going to wait. That we’re going to be kind first and right later.

Thirteen minutes in, I catch our server’s eye. Two minutes later she’s at our table with the waters, shaken. Eyes red. Voice tight. On the verge of tears, and trying hard not to let three people at a middle table see it. She apologizes. She takes our order. She checks on us the rest of the night.

I’ve seen this go the other way. I’ve seen it from people I sit next to in church. The same hands that fold in prayer, the same voice that sings along to every verse, cutting down a teenager in an apron because the salad came out wrong. I’ve watched someone push a plate back across the table, loud enough for three tables to hear, then walk into the lobby the next morning and thank me for showing up. Same person, different tone, loving me but appearing to hate the server.

It shouldn’t be like that. You can’t love your neighbor on Sunday and humiliate her on Saturday. Or maybe you can, but is it the same love Jesus calls us to?

Judah orders tiramisu. That was my mistake. Alissa rolls her eyes, recalling the espresso in it. The espresso hits him about halfway through. He gets funny. Excitable. Telling stories with his hands, wiggling in his chair, making Alissa and me laugh into our napkins. Our server comes back and catches the end of it, and for the first time all night her shoulders drop. She laughs. A real one.

Then she tells us about the table before ours. Nine people. The kitchen got the order wrong, and they blamed her. Yelled at her. Told her it was her fault. She’d been crying in the back when we sat down. That was the fifteen minutes.

She tells us this standing next to our table, half-smiling, half-apologizing for telling us at all. Judah is still bouncing. Alissa is nodding the way she does when someone needs to be heard.

When the check comes, she brings the manager herself. She tells him what happened with us. He apologizes. He takes a percentage off the bill and thanks us for showing up.

Not a free dessert. Not a performance. A thank you.

Walking out, we pass the nine-top. Still there. Still loud. Still at her. Same server, different round. One of them is waving a hand. Another is rolling her eyes. A man is explaining something to her slowly, the way you’d explain it to a child.

Judah sees it. Alissa sees it. I see it. None of us say anything until we’re in the parking lot.

Turns out people are human beings. Some of us are still learning how to show up and treat each other like we mean something.

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When was the last time I was the nine-top?