You Look Happy

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Walking past the checkout lanes in Schnucks, I was off in my head, music playing through my headphones. Trying to beat Alissa home. Get a bouquet of wildflowers with a single yellow rose in a vase. Get dinner started. Without thinking about it, I passed right by Eric, a running friend I hadn’t seen in months.

“Hey,” he smiled, waving at me as I was rushing by. “How’s married life going?” He pointed at the flowers. “Looks like it’s going pretty good?”

“Yeah,” I said. My grin totally gave it away. “It really is.”

“You look really happy.”

You look happy.

I’d felt it for months. But hearing someone else name it—someone who knew me before, who could see the difference—made it real in a way it hadn’t been. Standing there in the middle of Schnucks holding a bouquet of wildflowers, it hit me.

Full.

Not chasing something.

Not bracing for a setback. Not waiting for the next hard thing to crush me.

Just full.

For the first time in my life, I was content. Happy. Satisfied.

I always thought happiness was something you earned after working hard enough to fix broken things. After your career clicked into place. After the relationship finally worked. After you outran whatever scary thing was behind you. Happiness was the finish line. And I was always mid-race, somewhere at the back of the pack, never quite reaching it.

Here I was, standing in a grocery store, flowers in hand, and I wasn’t crossing any line. Just buying dinner. A simple act of kindness because I love my wife and she deserved to come home to flowers and a meal waiting for her. That’s why I hoped to beat her home. I wanted to see the look on her face when she walked in and realized I did all of it just for her. She loves wildflowers, and the yellow rose? She’d notice.

That’s it, really. All of it.

Eric saw it before I could name it. Happiness wasn’t waiting for me up ahead on the road. It had already arrived. Quiet. Without announcement. Right there, while I was busy making plans on a regular, ordinary evening.

When Alissa walked in and saw the flowers, she stopped mid-stride, mid-sentence. Eyes wide. Smile growing wider. Hand straight to her chest.

Eric was right.


Short. Honest. Straight to the point.

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2 responses to “You Look Happy”

  1. Harryette Miller Burnette Avatar
    Harryette Miller Burnette

    Wonderful story; it’s nice to be happy, but even better when you can read stories like this knowing there are others who are also happy. This is a tough day in which to live & be able to say the words, “I am happy.” Blessings to all the people sharing their “happy” life in this chaotic world we now live in.

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  2. Yes, Harryette Miller Burnette, happiness takes massive amounts courage these days! It feels countercultural saying: “I am happy.” When we do, it’s a breath of fresh air, helping us remember its out there.

    We just need to to stop, breathe, and vocalize it, when we experience it.

    Thank you for reading and sharing your thoughts. We need a lot more of this. More people brave enough to admit they’re happy, even when it feels risky to say so!

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